Bittersweet... but not chocolate

Currently I'm listening to "Rainbow Connection" by Kermit the Frog on repeat...

It seems to match nicely the somewhat happy, somewhat sad mood I'm in right now. There's nothing terribly wrong with my life right now, but there's lots of little things that are twinging that with a little bit of sadness. It's the kind of sadness where you almost want to stay in it for a while.

I guess part of the reason for this feeling is the weather... It seems such a trivial thing to affect me that much, but it does. Right now we're in the middle of a "warm" streak, so it's been above zero in the middle of the day for at least a week. This Sunday they're even predicting anywhere from +14 to 19, but behind that, on Tuesday to be exact, it will get cold again. So even though I can be happy with the weather now, knowing that Spring isn't here yet keeps me kind of sad. In the same way, it can be really cold, but if I know it's going to warm up soon, that brightens everything.

Another reason for this melancholy is that I want to be home. Of course I always want to be home, but it's even stronger now since Sharky and I are so close to graduation. But although we desperately want to leave, there will still be some sadness in leaving. For one thing, life may not be the happiest here, but it's familiar. When we move home, everything will be so different, and there are so many things we'll have to do in a short time. Also, though I am sick of being here in Calgary, and I'm ready to be done, I'm still going to miss school, and I'm not sure how I'll take to just working. Finally, we have so many amazing friends here, that it will be hard leaving all of them.

Sorry for the heavy post, I just wanted to get that out, and also say that "Rainbow Connection" is a great song!