This was the sight that greeted me when Sharky and I got home last week. (For the record, I didn't take this picture, but there were a lot of cherry blossoms out last week.)
It's good to finally be home after being away so long, but now there's the struggle of having to find good jobs again. I've already got a part time job, but it sucks because it's retail and only minimum wage!!! I was actually quite insulted that that's all they'll pay me because I've never made minimum wage in my life... not even at my first job! It was a shock to my system, but I sucked it up and took it as money coming in until I find a better one. It's created quite a roller coaster of emotions in just a few days. First I felt really good about myself because I got a call back only a day after handing in my resume. I was thinking, "hey, I am competent and employers do see the value in me". But then when I found out it was only $8/hour I felt pretty crappy and I thought "maybe I have no skills, and no one else will hire me". I know both reactions are a little melodramatic, but that's the boost and attack to my self-esteem that this job has already had on me. I really hope I find better soon though, not just because I want better experience than just retail, but also because $8/hour won't pay the bills AT ALL, even if it was full-time. You're probably wondering where Sharky is in all this. Well, he's looking for work too, but he'll be going back to school in September, so all the money he makes this summer will go to that, and then I'll be the one supporting both of us, and minimum wage just doesn't cut it!
